masculine disappointment

so the doctor's visit was a surprise and, what should be, a relief. no broken bones, no chipped bones, not nothing. most likely a bone bruise with some ligament damage.

good news, but somewhere in side of me, i was regretful that my hand was not broken. what a twisted mind i have. i guess i am not manly enough since my hand is not broken. well maybe, next time i will have to try a little harder in my rageful state.