patiently dying

so now it is the time of waiting upon God. the interviews have been done, the songs sung, the resume turned in, the references given and so the waiting begins. i do have to say that there is an atypical sense of calmness about it, which is astonishing. i expect to be like my normal self who wants to interfere and be wholly excited about a new opportunity. i feel as though that God has placed this in front of me for a reason, but at the same time, i cannot determine His will outright.

by this time next week, i will have most likely found out about the position and will determine how my next couple years will look like. such a large decision and yet still such serenity within me. see how unusual this is, especially for me.

God, be the light to my path and most of all, let me be a better witness of your mercy.