Poker = Life

it is great getting together with old friends, reliving some memories and just livin it up. i had a few of those nights recently where we got some poker going on, it was great, until the poker started. one of my worst nights ever playing poker, not because i was playing bad, because nothing was going my way. hands that i was supposed to win, i didn't, and hands that were a toss up, landed on their side.

i'm ok with losing at poker, but driving home, something resonated within me how much my perception of my life seemed exactly how my poker experience was. i could do many things to try and create a better chance for me to have success, but you still need to have the "cards fall" in the right places for it to truly succeed. and to me, my life is without the things that i value the most. so this along with my poker abilities, seemed to be so unfair that God and i had a talk (a.k.a. me yelling, Him sitting around and listening, as always).

He is very good at reminding, that helps me a lot. so i had all these thoughts throughout my head this weekend and this morning, pastor in adding to his message, spoke of a verse that i had placed by the wayside in my "conversation" with Yahweh, "not my will, but your will."

and i said ouch.

as much as that grumbling will always be within me, it is the daily struggle to realize that it is not about my desires or any specific idea i may have that would benefit my life, it is about honoring God's will in my life, in those around me.

i hope you all remember that phrase as we live, complain, long and grumble throughout daily existence.